Someone once told me “ You have to accept your pain, your heart ache, you have to accept the struggle, things are going to be hard but you have to accept it and go through it in order to feel okay. In order to feel clarity.”
In any circumstance accepting something is tough and accepting something that you just really really don’t want to accept is challenging. Recently my mind took a trip to the past, more like in a quick moment I was on the edge again and I didn’t want to accept in that moment that I wasn’t okay. It took me a long time to be happy, happiness is something that I’ve always wanted, and I have finally gotten that. But on that one day, that one night at around 8:30, I was playing monopoly with my twin sister and my closest friend, I cried. Ever since I had gotten the help that I needed I was happy, I was thriving, I’d cry because I would laugh so hard, I’d cry if I had fallen clumsily. This time it wasn’t any of those things, It was because I was feeling pain again. During the game my friend commented and like we were both being competitive(as anyone would) he had said a few things that I know I shouldn’t take seriously, but it did take me back into those dark and depressing days, and like I had mentioned before it has been a long time since I had faced this again. When they had asked me “what was wrong,” I said “nothing, I’m fine.” But everyone knows that when you say ”I’m fine” it’s really code for I’m not okay, even if you try and say I’m good, most of the time people would know that you aren’t, in this case they were right. I wasn’t okay. I tried to tell myself that I can’t think about this again, I can’t be sad again. Yet, I needed to ACCEPT that in order to really move forward, in order to really be okay, you have to take on the damage that has already been done and create a different type of damage that can heal you.
Here are some famous motivational videos to get you started, to get the ball rolling:

Published BY: Ariana N. Baez